My heart aches for your family
Im truly sry. I hope that someday ur family can be at peace. I really know how ur feelin, In 99 i lost my bestfriend Nikki to drunk drivin. I was the driver. It eats me up everyday. We were only 16 yrs old. Nikki dies in the air flight beside me. Her family has been great to me, they have never blamed me. I have to live with the fact that i decided to play God and that it wasnt right. I didnt get any charges due to her parents sayin that I got all the punishment i needed. I wasnt able to go to nikkis Funeral or callin hours, due to they didnt think I was goin to make it. i never got the chance to say goodbye or that i was sry. There was alot more to the accident there was a othe car with friends the other car was drinkin and drivin too, he fishtailed and hit my car causin me to lose control. The other driver was a friends boyfriend and was 23yrs old. he is now in jail and severin 10 more years. Becuase he was the one that brought the beer for us. I know that what i did wasnt right and that i miss her everyday. due to this event Im not a drinker now and I hate to hear of people even havin 1 drink and then driving. i donate money to the MADD program... I know it will not chage what I did but it will help others.
Recently i lost my baby bro to sucide. he was my other bestfriend. i blame myself for that too. Losing someone dear to you is a huge thing to deal with. So not only have i lost one but i lost both. After chris pasted, I wondered if God was punishin me for the wrongs i did. Im still deallin with these issues. My parents arent very helpful. they only deal with there pain and sorrow.... im sorry that her friend isnt takin reponsible for his actions. Its not right. I truly feel sorry for him. believe me it will eat him alive, maybe not to taday or this year but it will.........Try to make something good out of this, be Holli's voice now. never let her be forgotten. She will always be yalls lil girl and no one can ever take that way for you guys. NO ONE. Not even that guy. he may of takin her away, but he will never beable to take your memorys away.
please go and visit chris's website
to Holli, u r free now. so rest in peace. ur family really seems to love you and miss you. Like your mom has said spend your beautiful wings and fly free. and everytime you want to see them come down from heaven and see them as a butterfly......so remember butterflys are free and they are beautiful. so next drop by and say hello to them.....
REST IN PEACE Close