I don't think I could ever explain to someone how hard it is to be the parent of an angel. I am scared I am going to forget even the smallest thing about Holli, yet I can't bring myself to look at her pictures. Some I can look at for just a moment but then I come across one like this......
Just one glance at this picture broke my heart all over again. This is what I think about when I think about holli. She was always helping me and I was always bugging her. That is the "MOM" look that I got so many times. I miss that look. This one picture sent me over the edge once again. For two days I could not function at all. I just wanted to die. I could only think about being with her. I am told often, not in so many words that I shouldn't dwell on this. This is not a choice for me. I do not choose to have this heart wrenching pain. I have it and it is what my life will forever be like. God how I wish I could live my life again. I wish my faith was strong enough to let my heart heal just knowing Holli is in a much better place. But I can't. I just cannot be happy that my daughter is dead. I know it is selfish of me to want her back, but I do. I am lonely without her. I don't think I really realized how connected we were until she was gone. Everybody wants me to let go but they don't understand that the day I let go will be the day I join her.
I love you Holli and God only knows how much I miss you.
Gettin better!! / Leanne Ellis
Hi Holli, im not as good as your mum on the computer but i made this for you, its a start dont you think hahaha, hope you and ur mum like it xoxoxoxClose
Such a loss!! / Leanne Ellis
Such a short life, yet so deeply deeply remembered, you really did leave a mark on all your family and friends....I bet your really proud of your mum for the site she has done for you on memory-of, its beautiful just like you...Hope you have met my angel son? Ha ha i bet your keeping all those angel babies in check and lending them in the right direction on eternal life..Godbless holli. Thinking of you and your family Love Leanne xoxox Close
Thinking of You. / Shelia-Wife Of Angel Kenneth Dueitt (Visitor)Read >>
Thinking of You. / Shelia-Wife Of Angel Kenneth Dueitt (Visitor)
I'm so sorry for the senseless tragic loss of your beautiful daughter Holli. You are in my thoughts and prayers. You were blessed to have such a wonderful daughter, and Angel Holli was blessed to have such a caring and loving family. May God Bless you with peace and comfort all the days of your life. xoxo
Happy Fathers day Paul / MOM
I know how hard Fathers day was for you. I should have been there for you more but I fought back tears the whole day. Holidays are not Holidays anymore without Holli here. I know she would have given you the best fathers day. I hurt for you Paul, I really do. I know you miss Holli so much and it is hard for you to talk about it. I am and will continue to try and be strong for you. I wish I knew how to stop your pain. I don't even know how to stop mine.
The last conversation you had with holli, she was telling you her plans for you on fathers day. She was going to take you out to eat. That replays in my mind. I can see her planning it all now. She had grown up so much that last year. She had become quite the little lady. I was so proud of her. I wish I had told her. I hope she knew.
She loved you so much Paul. She was always trying to take care of you. She was and always will be your little girl.
I love you Paul with all my heart. Happy Fathers Day!!
missing you / Dad
holli i miss you so much , but i know there is a reason you were called home so soon , i know the lords hand was at work here , as any parent who loses a child , there is allways an empenty spot , but i have seen your mother give comfort to others , even when she was hurting herself , your mother is a good advocate for you , give her strenght
i wouldnt trade my few years i had you on this earth , but i would give every thing i had up for one more day with you, i miss you my red head , we wont live forever and will soon be back toghter again
i trust and belive in jesus and i know that his will was at work , may god bless you all and know that this pain but a second ,
missing you / Mom
It takes all my strength Holli not to join you. I have a real hard time seeing my life without you. I just don't see me without you. I wish I could accept that you are happy and in a great place. My brain knows its true but my heart can't seem to feel it. They say God doesn't give you more than you can handle. Well you tell him that I can't handle this. This was not supposed to happen. I was not supposed to bury my child. My child was supposed to bury me. my heart aches for you so much. You were my light through life and now I just sit in the dark....waiting for you to come back....or me to come there. I love you Holli waddles and I miss you so so much. Close
MEMORIAL DAY GIFT / BETH DICKERSON (JIMMY'S MOM )Read >>
MEMORIAL DAY GIFT / BETH DICKERSON (JIMMY'S MOM ) Close
In My Thoughts And Prayers / Connie Ulvik (Angel Friend )Read >>
In My Thoughts And Prayers / Connie Ulvik (Angel Friend )
Happy Mothers Day / Marcelle Mum To ^i^ Daniel Coorey Read >>
Happy Mothers Day / Marcelle Mum To ^i^ Daniel Coorey
Beautiful Angel Holli stay close to your mum on Mothers Day. Send her lots of angel hugs because she misses you so much. Keeping you both in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs and Love to you both......
yesterday was hard / Dad
yesterday was hard cause holli's dog was run over by a thoughless person , that was the last thing me and her mom got her for her birthday , he was a hardheaded basset hound , but like holli he was full of love , its just hard cause , jojo was holli's and she would have been so proud of him , i know it may sound strange but it was like loseing her all over again , this has been a hard year for us , but i know we will meet again , i read a book where preacher siad dont grieve , i dont know how a parent can not when they lose a child
yes i know holli is in a better place and she would be mad at me for crying , i know she would be saying just wait till you get here , ok i have counted to ten now , i know the lord knows best and all this will make sense soon , holli i cant wait to see you again and jojo too
i know you two are haveing a blast , just remmber i love you and watch over your mom
Such a Beautiful Angel / Lisa Arceneaux ^j^ Tyler's Mom Read >>
Such a Beautiful Angel / Lisa Arceneaux ^j^ Tyler's Mom
Holli you are such a beautiful Angel. Enjoy Heaven. We will all be reuinted one day.
TO THE CROCKETT FAMILY: I believe this is the first time I run across Holli's website, and today is her 1st anniversary. Such a beautiful page for a beautiful angel. As I read her website I cried outloud, because even though we have never met, I feel your pain. My angel just had his 2nd anniversary. I know those days (like everyday-the rest of our lives) are tough. I noticed in one of the pictures of Holli she has a shirt with a #8 on it. That was my son Tyler's football number. I also noticed we're both from Louisiana. Just wanted to let you know that I am praying for your angel and your family. May God Bless & comfort you. Close
thinking of you today and always / Selma Flynn Read >>
thinking of you today and always / Selma Flynn Close
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